História Dear daddy - Dear daddy

Dear daddy,
 I'm really scared.
 I feel as if i did all the wrong choices, but I don't know how to stop, is like I'm addicted to doint shit.
 I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to dissapoint you.
 Mom says you're kind of a ghost and that you're with us all the time - probably protecting us I guees.  Sometimes when I'm having a harsh time I talk to the nowhere because you might be listening and if so maybe you could help, I don't know...
 I did a few bad things, but I feel sorry. Is that enough? Even when I keep doing it? The religious people say I would go to hell, will I? Should I?
 I'm confused, daddy. I guess everybody is... I'll just have to learn how to deal with it.
 Sorry for the caligraphy is just that I smoked 2 cigars and I'm not feeling quite well after it. I don't think cigars are very good for me.
 But don't worry to much, there is a few people around that love me and they might help.
 What should I do??
 I guess you can't do much from where you're standing...
 But time heals everything and everything is ok when it ends ok, so I'll make my own ok.
 Good night.
                                                      The youngest.