Escrita por: ~world_girl
One more day and I'm at the bar drinking and puting all the problems out so I dicided to go to the bathroom and for one moment I remembered how I felt "one of the best lawyers of the town ". I lost everything that I care and now it's just me, the drink and my puppy which's name is tod ,so i was looking to the mirror and i realized that I was too skinny with messy long hair and wearing a red dress.Going back to my second home (the bar),I saw a interesting man and my mom thoughts came in my mind "you need another man! You have to have a man unless you want to be alone forever" so I decided to hit this thought and go for a seat next to an old woman, who was drunk just like me. The woman :
-what's your name ?
-Oh! My name is Marjorie...
-After a few minutes of silencie
-Aren't you going to ask me what my name is ?- she said confused.
-No - i said.
All the years that I came here she was the first person who actually try talk to me, but I just don't care.
-okay ... so my name is Allison and you don't look old, am I right ?
I agree with my head.
-why a young lady is alone at the bar ?
-You don't wanna know.
-If I am Asking it's because I want know.
-Okay... if you say so ! I'm here because I want ! I'm always here at this time, drinking the same thing...
-Ohhh poor women, too young but with a boring life - she said and laugh.
-What is the funny ?
-Isn't funny but now I'm seeing me on you ! Marjorie, move on ! I know that something bored you a long time ago but you have to move on!
After she said that I got choked because an old women is telling me that I have to MOVE ON BUT SHE DIDNT KNOW WHAT I PASSED " okay breathe , breathe "
-you don't know what you are talking!
-Of course, I know !
-You don't know what I have been passing all this years...
and I cut her speak and start putting out what a felt.
- you know why I go here every single day and drink the same drink ? Because 3 years ago me and my boyfriend was here drinking this after - and my voice failed and I felt a tear falling from my face - I had the courage to broke up because of an abuse relationship and as a lawyer I won the case but as a human I was scary and all this years after everything that I passed with him i..kind lost the way to talk to the people,hence i got a big trauma. Therefore now you know!
On that moment the old lady hug me and said with a sweet voice :
-sweet Marjorie, I'm proud of you ! I know that's not easy but someday in our lives we have to make choices and sometimes we feel regrets but another we feel ALIVE - she take a deep breathe and take my hand - you are young and got a big trauma but if you hadn't done this you would have had more problems. And I see a gorgeous smart women that lost her self, look at you ! Put everything out! I know that you can.
After she told me this ,came a flashback about my graduation, my first job, my travels and I felt angry because I was stupid.
-your drink .
-Thank you .
So I started drink and drink and think about what I lost, why? Why I let myself do that ? Why I found that man who destroyed my life ? Everything happen for a reason and WHY? This happen to me. Lost in my thoughts Allison take my hand:
-please can you give me a ride ?
-Why don't you take a taxi ?
-Because I finished with all my money here.
" great now I'm a babysitter of an old women "
- please take me home!
-But I'm drunk.
-No your not - and she starts laughing and yelling - you just drink a few cups, let's gooooo!
-OK Ok Ok i dont have patience for this
Consequently, I got the car and started drive .
After 10 minutes
Everything was too quite and I just heard a scream:
-LOOK A CARR !!!
And I just saw in slow motion my car flying because I didn't see the other car and everything was starting to get black, I felt a headache and ... I saw blood and... everything got black.
In the middle of darkness a silence remained, my breath began to weigh also my all body. What just happened ? Did I kill Someone ? Oh my god! so tears started falling from my eyes" its my fault " and I repeat that again for myself but one sound broke this silence but wasn't any sound, its was a familiar one " that's so strange " like PI PI PI so I assumed that was an ambulance.
London- 1:30 p.m- my bed
I opened my eyes and I was crying, hence I woke up fast, turned off the alarm clock and cleaned my face so i realized that everything wasn't real, but I could still feel the fear and the guilt. So I stopped and realized that the old lady was only my subconscious and Just one thought came in my mind "if I had drunk this would have happened" thanks god it was just a dream...