História The Rain - Capítulo Único

May we all start like that. Crying. A river going down our eyes.

May we all end like the opposite of it, with a smile on our mouth and a little drop of eye rain in our chest.

But we both know it's not like that right?

We both know we end up afraid and lonely, we end up trapped inside ourselves.

When those two drops of rain fell in your face that day, you barely could hold off your own rain, you barely could hold your pain.

You remembered those ones who said you were special, who said you'd always be in their hearts and then left.

You held on, not because you're strong, you know you're weaker than a feather, but because you were ashamed of the fact you still remembers those people.

You wrote love songs, you wrote cliché texts, you draw weird faces and you shouted your most awkward feelings to yourself in a silent scream.

But you refused to let your own rain fall down.

As you locked yourself in your room listening to sad songs wrote by sad people and watched the storm hitting your window you thought about the people you loved and then they ran away with other people, you think about how you read and listen music for the sole  purpose of running away from reality and forgetting all your troubles.

When you remember even you mother is giving up on you and you have not many reasons to live.

When you lay there surrounded by darkness, surrounded by feelings you wish would just go away, when you think how life isn't worth everything it charges, that's when your own rain goes down.

It goes down with an amazing feeling of relief that cleanses your body and souls, that makes your thoughts clear again, that makes you barely not sad.

Just barely.

Because you remember where you are, why you are there and how you got there.

And the rain is falling.

It is falling like a storm, like the last torrential rain before the creation of a new world.

The rain is falling so endlessly and apart from everything you imagine if that's how a God is, if that's how It feels.

And the rain keeps knocking on your window.