I really don't know what to say. But um, I guess I should start. With this… You sit here and tell me that nobody wants you... But, I don't understand where you're coming from that. I don't see where I became nobody. I mean.. In my eyes I'm somebody. In my eyes I'm somebody important and my opinion matters.
But I am pretty stupid.
But I'm definetely not nobody.
So when you tell me, nobody wants you. That hurts. Cause I don't see how you can say that when there's someone fighting for you, everyday. Right in front of you. because they care about you. So, if you can't hear me when I tell you that you matter. Maybe now you can hear me. I am not no one, so DO NOT say that nobody wants you. Because I want you. And I fight for you everyday. I think about you every day.
I wonder how you're doing. Because I can't be there for you, all the time. But that doesn't mean I'm nobody. Cause I care. And you know, the person that says that nobody cares about them is usually the person with the most people caring about them. So, yeah. That's the person I've been fighting for the person who says that nobody cares about them when someone does. And you know, I'm cool about that. But there is a line, that when you cross it ya know.. That really hurts.
You told me, that nobody wanted you. Ok we get that. But then you have the nerve to tell me that there is no such thing as happiness or love. Right there. I know that is a lie. You tell me that happiness and love is a lie and that's all fairy tails and stories and it's a lie like all of that. Right now you are lying to me when you say that, because I know happiness. I know love. You know it too. But you're too blind to see it.
Ok, does it sound like I'm being really harsh right now? Yeah, that's called tough love. LOVE! Get it threw your head, it is real! And it is right in front of you! Ya know I smile every day and if you really know me you might find that hypocritical. But I smile everyday because I find something to be happy about. Every day. Even when it's the worst day on Earth. Somebody makes me smile even if it has no relation to me. You know why? I recognize happiness. I understand it. I cherish it. I believe in it. But something's happened along the way and you no longer see it's possibility. You say it's a lie like fairy tales. Fairy tales are no lie. You're supposed to be inspired by them. You look at this character and see them going threw this situation that seems almost totally impossible. Ya know no human could every get through that. But you see them persevere. You see them go threw this and you see them holding their heads high even when they fall they get back up. And then you see the end.
Something ya know there's good that comes out of what they just went through. They’re supposed to tell you that you should just keep going cause there are good moments that happen. And no water who you are you're gonna have a good moment in your life. So don't close the book before you've gotten to the climax. So don't tell me there are no happy endings because you're not God you cannot read the end of your book. You can't read the last page. You can't. But if you do close that book and if you do stop writing it, I will pick up your book. In hand with mine. And I will right yours and mine at the same time. And i will think about closing mine. About closing yours. About closing them both. Because it's hard to write two books are once. But guess what, LIFE IS HARD. Writing your book of life is gonna be difficult. And if I am sitting here willing to pick up your book of life, and write it even after you're done with it. The my God! You had the best- Better open your eyes.
Only a blind person doesn't see what's in front of them. And if you can't see that there is somebody so willing to do anything for you because they care about you and are happy and they want you to be happy and they love you. I just.
Here's the thing, there are happy endings. I've seen them. There is love because I've seen it, I've felt it, and I've experienced it. And part of love is happiness and pain. Because if you experience pain when you're happy you know you're happy. When you're in love, you know you're in love. You KNOW. Don't tell me it's a lie, don't try and bring me down with you because I am not bringing myself down and I'm not gonna let you bring yourself down either. I will pick you up and I will carry you so help me! Even after you're dead. I will fight for you. I will fight for your memory because guess what? Everything you do is etched in time. You can't get rid of it so ending your life, ending that book, is not worth it.
So don't say you're not wanted when somebody wants you.
Cause that's what you'll get.